reminisce

sometimes i think about my middle school and high school experience and wonder if i would trade places with my students, living through it again. as much of an emotional roller coaster it was, hanging out with my friends, talking to my girlfriends about our crushes, and kicking butt in academics was pretty fun =)

slowly but surely

three steps forward, two steps back. on the bright side, i'm making progress and have a great deal of support from my mentor, team leaders, and all the other teachers. academic support, emotional support, encouragement, empathy, blessings, and laughs; i really am fortunate to be surrounded by such people.

first time in a long time that i dwelt in the good book of God's Word. rereading Deuteronomy, i realized that i'm truly a desert season of my life right now. the promised land was good and fruitful, God constantly assuring them that it belongs to Israel. yet when i think about it, it wasn't vacant and easy for the picking. there were other people who lived there who needed to pack their bags and Israel was to actively take possession of it even though God was giving it to them. never really thought deeply on that part. it is a good land, but for us to enjoy the land, we must take ownership and work to enjoy the fruit and goodness. i know that this path is not easy but it will be worth it. i claim it for Jesus.

on a lighter note, when i tried to order an amaretto sour by a friend's recommendation at the bar today, bartender looked at me with puzzlement and simply said, "a sissy drink." hahaha better to stick with the rum and coke- most excellent indeed.

.lost and found.

it's been so long that i forgot.
forgot who my God is, forgot what love is, forgot the reason i live.




You are the only true and living God who passionately loves and offers life everlasting.
how could i forget such a wonderful savior?

i left it in the corner, you see.
in the back behind all the boxes and furniture where your eyes would miss it.
the clutter began to pile and soon enough,
everything was out of place and i lost track of what i had.

i cleaned my room today.
it looks a lot better after two hours.
i'm not done yet but i found it behind all the clutter.
i forgot that i even had it.

i'll need to clean and organize everyday so this stops repeating.
it's so easy for my room to get out of control.  

but you know what?
if i remember everyday how beautiful my room can be,
and if i put what's important front and center,
it won't be so hard, you see,

because i found the gift of amazing grace again.